Secret

Can I tell you a secret?
I'm afraid of the dark
all the secret wonders
no time to be afraid of the monsters that creep around
there are more REAL things out there.
The rapes, kidnappings, and murders
all happen at night
gun shots
help cries
night time is just scary to me

Can you keep a secret?
I'm afraid of having children
What about all the child birth deaths
The screaming indicates pain
My cousin died in that pain
Cries
whines
then silence
will that be me next?

Can you keep a secret?
I'm afraid of death
I lived my life
but what's next?
How am I so sure God is not
another tale
Yes I believe and yes I want to see
The god in which I believe but
wheres my indicator that my life after death will be the best
how do any of our questions get answered?
i dont know

Can you keep a secret?
I'm afraid of love
Why become committed?
How to trust not getting hurt?
Since when did love have restrictions
When did love lie
since the dark became deadly
since birth could kill
since death had no explanation