Love Lied To Me

When you're born, you're given a clean slate.

You're cute, tiny, innocent.

You have no idea of the difficulties that you'll one day face.

One day those monsters in your closets and under your beds, will be more.

They will be everywhere you look.

They are the demons, haunting your every thought.

You start to grow up, and grow older.

Suddenly its already been 7 years since you were born,

and you're playing in the streets with your friends.

You hear you conscience, that little voice in your head whispering to you

"They'll only hurt you in the end"

But you ignore it.

You ignore it because you're only 7 years old

And in your reality, everything seems perfect.

Now lets jump 6 years down the road, you're 13 years old.

You walk to school frightened by the glares of your classmates.

You're whats considered "different" or "uncool"

No one wants to be aound you, so you turn to music instead,

But even thats not enough to save you.

You wish every day that you could have a better life.

You pray to a God that you dont even believe in,

To take you, and save you, and bring you anywhere but here.

You were so sweet and innocent all of those 13 years ago,

The world could do you no harm.

But then this horrible, terrible thing started to occur.

Do you want to know what it is?

You grew up.

You cried every single night from the pain of their words.

As if you cant handle life, its just too hard.

But you promised yourself you wouldnt cry,

and you failed at completing that promise.

Those tears, tears of betrayal turn to scars.

You're lost in this life, confused.

The world is now nothing like you once thought it would be.

Now, its just a nightmare in disguise.

Finally one day the pain gets to be too much.

You've lost too much.

You dont know how to live without the ones you love,

So you decide to end it.

But the thing is, you cant bring yourself to do it at first.

Its that one simple sentence that everyone around you utters

"Suicide is for cowards."

It makes your blood boil inside your veins.

You're so angry, you just want to hurt something.

But you make a big mistake, you inflict that anger upon yourself.

You're so tired of all of their words.

And all of a sudden you think back to when you were 7.

Suddenly, you're wishing that you had listened to that little voice in your head, all those years ago.

They'd only hurt you in the end.

They'd only hurt you.

You wish you had listened, because those words had become your new reality.

All of a sudden your perfect 7 year old reality, wasnt so perfect.

Your reality had become a nightmare.

And all of those words, well, they werent exactly helping.

But you see, if all of those people knew the kinds of things you do just to hide the pain, or make it go away,

Their minds would change in a heartbeat.

If they knew all of the pain that you go through, they would change.

I just know it.

You know, you kind of remind me of myself in many ways.

In no way could I ever know the pain you had felt.

But i know what it feels like to be alone.

To feel like nothings ever going to go right.

Like you're at your wits end.

I know what it feels like to feel unloved.

I only wish that i had told you that you are more often.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

But now, I cant say that to your face.

When you inflicted that anger upon yourself,

When you took your own life,

You took a part of mine.

I know what it feels like to be alone,

I know what it feels like to feel unloved.

Because YOU made me this way,

because YOU left,

YOU left without a second thought.

You weren't alone,

You were loved.

And now I'll never be the same, because you're gone.

I dont know how to live without the ones I love,

but because of one little decision you made,

I'm forced to learn something new, which is how to live without you.

Now I've got to be honest, I kind of hope you feel guilty now.

Because you know what?

You weren't alone.

You were loved.