Behind new walls

Trapped and lost alone here
And now I’m feeling a new fear
But the pain has not yet come near
So the meaning is not yet clear

And the walls I’m trapped behind are new
But they stand strong I can’t break through
So once again I turn to you
Tell me what am I to do?

I’ve been through pain
I’ve been through hate
And I once thought
I was too late

To save my life
To save my skin
Because my strength
It is so thin

But you stood strong
You made me last
You held me up
Helped me get past

And now, with no way out
That I can see
I think I’m winning
Against my enemy

I’m torn from war
And I still
Have the scars
I still remember the kill

But now the walls I’m trapped behind are new
There are three doors but which one’s true
And now which one should I walk through
Tell me please, ‘cause I trust you!

The game has changed
The war is done
And now finally
The resting one

It sitting here
Left all alone
His hand resting
On the red stone

He’s waiting and
He thinks so clear
Because no pain
Now’s coming near

He does still feel
He thinks its fear
But it’s not the same
As in past years

The game has changed
It’s rearranged
And now he thinks
He’s just deranged

But now his hands are
Softer still
What he has done
Has strengthened his will

Cause the walls I now face are new
I can’t tell which door I should go through
I’m not sure what I feel is true
So please, I’m begging you!

Tell me how to get out!
Tell me how to leave!
Tell me how to run now!
Make me believe!

With three doors now
In front of me
I can’t tell which one
Makes me free

There’s one to stay
And one to go
And one to simply
Just say no

But I can’t see
It’s blinding me
So please now
What am I to be?

You’re suddenly right behind me
I’m waiting ever patiently
But I can’t wait an eternity
So please let me see!

The walls I’m trapped in they are new
And now as I’m frozen, I look at you
Hoping what I see is true
‘Cause now I know I’ll make it through

This fear that I have
I’m not sure I want it to leave
I know it’s strange
But it’s what I believe

My breath is gone
And I can’t think
And I can’t move
And I can’t blink

I’ll live forever
But still which door?
I have to move
I feel so sore

I just don’t know
Which way to go
And so I think
I’ll take this slow

I’m trusting you to know now
Not just what to do, but also how
And I know you said you would vow
That you wouldn’t ever bow

Still standing above things
But no one can tell what this brings
And we’re waiting but it still stings
Realization of it ending

And day by day we held this land
And side by side and hand in hand
The blood we lost, it made us stand
So now why don’t you understand?

I know this
Doesn’t come close to bliss
But if I had the chance
I wouldn’t ever miss

‘Cause what you’re doing,
It kills me
But I’m begging you,
Please let me see

Yes I know
It is your choice
But I beg you now,
Give me a voice

Because this felling won’t
hit the ground
Till I am
Taken down

And so days move on
Like passing rain
The sound could drive
Anyone insane

But still three doors in front of me
Which is is free
I cannot see
It’s blinding me
And I must be
A simple new epitome

Of something else
Something lost
Something new
Something fair
Something true
Something good
Something strong
That shall last
Forever long

So as this twisted
Thought now ends
I’m simply glad
You didn’t bend
But I still wish
And I still dream
I’m wondering if
It’s not just steam
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This poem is sort of a combination of all of my feelings, thoughts, and occurences that I've experienced over the past year or so, with a huge underlying message in it. I'm not sure I'm really ready to directly share that message with anyone, so if you figure it out please message me if you wish to confirm it rather than commenting about it. Other than that, please comment about what you think of the poem!