what just happened

music is a reflection of ones self
without it i wouldnt be able to show my self
its cazy how i came from such a place
now im in this palace
but i still keep my gaurd up just in case
even though me and you are different
we are exactly alike
i find my self looking at the mirror
and be in such disgust
but i must
keep it together for you
and you have no clue
how much i love you
i get enthused
by just seeing you and you make my fuse
longer and longer
it keeps me from blowing up
i just see it hard to believe
that i cant just leave
and how a girl like you
could be with me
its just to much to believe
i get scared of what ive been through
i feel like its gonna change the way you see me
and then your gonna leave me
i promise you i never meant to pick up that bat
that image is still in my head
he was layed out like he was on a bed
i hate to think about it
but i have to get threw it
you know i love you and i want to be with you
but i just cant bare the look on your face
when i tell you what happened in that place

god please forgive