Somewhere Only We Know...

Something’s wrong with me
I hate that I can’t be happy

It’s killing me

I didn’t take my medicine today
I ‘forgot’ because it’s not making me better

I don’t want it, I don’t want any of this….
I don’t know why I just can’t be happy

Maybe because I hate just excepting things

I’m always trying to make things better
Or to brighten up people’s situations

But never my own

I am so fucked up
…I’m sick of everything…
I just want a friend

A friend that I used to have

One that would come over to my house and sit in my room

One that I could laugh with and cry with

One that I would spend hours and hours talking to and never get tired

One that would hold me when I cry

I lost her and It’s my fault

Now I want her back but it’s too late

She’s already a different person

She became something I despise

I just wonder how.

I just wonder why

I remember though this one day
It was hot
We were both in trouble
We got sent to my room
She smiled and started putting on her make up
So I did too
We dressed up
Flowing skirts and tops
Then snuck out and danced in the yard
It was twilight when the fireflies were out…

I remember this one moment in time
Everything just sort of went in slow motion
She smiled and laughed then we both stood there
Looking at the fireflies
Feeling magical
Nothing else has ever compared…