Painful Desire

I see you in my head.

Laughing, crying.

With me

I see that your not happy with me.

You don't want this, but I do.

I crave you everytime I see you.

I walk to your doorstep,

with a flower in hand,

ring the doorbell and stand.

Thoughts fly in my head.

Thinking your not happy with me.

You open the door with a smile on your face,

I smile back and walk into your house.

Look around the room and see that I am unwelcome.

As these walls are lookin down at me.

My heart begins to race,

I bleed inside but there isnt a trace,

Your eyes gleam at me through the candle light.

I can read your mind.

Your not happy,

I'm not happy.

We begin to fight,

scream loud and the house shakes of anger.

You slap me, push me, punch me and kick me.

To the floor.

I see you go for a knife on the counter.

You stand above me with a knife in hand,

I stare deep into your eyes and see darknees inside.

My pain mocks me,

the walls warned me.

I made you repeat what you did last time,

but this time.

Your not gonna let it happen again...