Blue September

A week before
I thought she was fine
I thought she would eventually eat
I thought she was healthy

A day before
I thought she was as good as dead
I thought my parents were assholes
I thought my world was crashing down

An hour before
I thought she was fine
I thought the vet would know
I thought there was hope

A week before
She wouldn't eat
She drank plenty of water
She was ill

A day before
She never ate anything
She wouldn't drink any water
She was dying

An hour before
She wouldn't move
She wouldn't do anything
She was dead

An hour after
I was having the time of my life
I was at a Blue October concert in September
I thought she was already getting better

A day after
I pretended it didn't happen
I couldn't stop thinking about it
I was in so much pain

A week after
I wanted her back
I wanted to stop crying
I wanted a tombstone over her grave

A month after
I didn't want my mother to get a cat to replace her
I wanted her alive and healthy
I miss her terribly