How Many?

How Many?
How many "Friends" do i have to go through before someone stays?
How many butterflies do I have to draw on my wrist before the sensation to cut goes away?
How many insults do I have to listen to before I jump?
How many times do I have to cry until someone listens?
How many times do I have to fake a smile before someone sees through my mask?
How many friends do I have to help before someone helps me?
How many?