Waiting

wasted from time
and waiting on forever
saving this line for someone
waiting on the other side.
and throughout these trials
and the questions that follow
i wonder
if you look at me and see me
in the same light you
did before.
my skin may be more sallow,
my eyes may be a bit more dull
and yet you say you see
me as nothing less than perfection.
how can you say this
how can you mention that to me
those words...
how do you betray yourself
when his arms are around me
and you wish it was you
i clung to?'
my heart hurts from your eyes
the weight i see within them
and i can do nothing.
a love too strong to pull away from
and a love so strong i can't ignore.
and my lips may cross the path of
yours,
but my lies will cover me,
a blanket of steel.
i am inpenetrable
and my love for you...
a secret
a dream
a hope
a lie.
forgive me.