A Waste of Time
These dreams just need to go away
And find another place to stay
Another head, or heart or brain
Because I swear they will drive me insane
I can’t quite understand why I cannot get you off my mind
You think that it’d be easy with the way you ignore me all the time
But like I said you stayed to look and I just took a hold
And since you gave me that one last hug I’ve just been clinging to you
You can’t just make me let go as if it never happened
Because it is a memory and I don’t want it to go away
It started with the scarf on my leg
A promise, I guess, or a persistent beg
But you tapped my shoulder and met my eyes
And that was it, and it’s time to sound like the other guys
I can’t quite understand why I was so distracted by you
You’d think that that one instance wouldn’t mean a lot
But like I said, that was it, and I just had to meet you
And for the next few months we walked circles trying to find the other
You can’t just disappear after all of that time we searched
Because that would just make you and I a waste of time
We have Skyped all night once or twice
And given each other some good advice
But I stopped agreeing when you told me no,
When you told me “no” to holding on, I had to let go
And here I am again I guess in this battle with myself
Holding on in hopes for a chance, one that will never come
You make it hard when you don’t want to see me anymore
I don’t know if it was when you read my palm or slept on me
Huddling close during that movie, and rushing my heartbeat
Or when I held your hand or asked for one more hug, I don’t know
And these dreams need to find their way into your bed
So they can find a way to wiggle inside of your head
So you can dream the dreams I dream on random nights
When the world is absolutely nothing but faded lights
It almost as if they faded like the hope inside my brain
That placed itself inside this hollow dying heart
If hurting me is what you feared then are you scared to death?
You claim to hurt when you hurt others, but you seem perfectly fine
I assume that you feel that you fixed the problem before it started
But it’s not a problem, and if it was it started months ago, before you and I were a waste of time
You just cared more than all of the others
More than my friends and friended “brothers”
You were eager to spend some time with me
And begged for days for my company
So I will hold onto this all I want, you have no say in what I can feel even if its blatant
I don’t care if you think I’m stupid for it, it’s just something you won’t understand
It’s as if someone finally decided to realize that I needed someone close to me
To hold and hug and spend all of my time with, a chance amongst misplaced words
Never to be found in the present, and existed in the past, with nothing to say of the future
So for now it will just stay the way it is, and I hope that you that now you and I were a waste of time
And find another place to stay
Another head, or heart or brain
Because I swear they will drive me insane
I can’t quite understand why I cannot get you off my mind
You think that it’d be easy with the way you ignore me all the time
But like I said you stayed to look and I just took a hold
And since you gave me that one last hug I’ve just been clinging to you
You can’t just make me let go as if it never happened
Because it is a memory and I don’t want it to go away
It started with the scarf on my leg
A promise, I guess, or a persistent beg
But you tapped my shoulder and met my eyes
And that was it, and it’s time to sound like the other guys
I can’t quite understand why I was so distracted by you
You’d think that that one instance wouldn’t mean a lot
But like I said, that was it, and I just had to meet you
And for the next few months we walked circles trying to find the other
You can’t just disappear after all of that time we searched
Because that would just make you and I a waste of time
We have Skyped all night once or twice
And given each other some good advice
But I stopped agreeing when you told me no,
When you told me “no” to holding on, I had to let go
And here I am again I guess in this battle with myself
Holding on in hopes for a chance, one that will never come
You make it hard when you don’t want to see me anymore
I don’t know if it was when you read my palm or slept on me
Huddling close during that movie, and rushing my heartbeat
Or when I held your hand or asked for one more hug, I don’t know
And these dreams need to find their way into your bed
So they can find a way to wiggle inside of your head
So you can dream the dreams I dream on random nights
When the world is absolutely nothing but faded lights
It almost as if they faded like the hope inside my brain
That placed itself inside this hollow dying heart
If hurting me is what you feared then are you scared to death?
You claim to hurt when you hurt others, but you seem perfectly fine
I assume that you feel that you fixed the problem before it started
But it’s not a problem, and if it was it started months ago, before you and I were a waste of time
You just cared more than all of the others
More than my friends and friended “brothers”
You were eager to spend some time with me
And begged for days for my company
So I will hold onto this all I want, you have no say in what I can feel even if its blatant
I don’t care if you think I’m stupid for it, it’s just something you won’t understand
It’s as if someone finally decided to realize that I needed someone close to me
To hold and hug and spend all of my time with, a chance amongst misplaced words
Never to be found in the present, and existed in the past, with nothing to say of the future
So for now it will just stay the way it is, and I hope that you that now you and I were a waste of time