Insomnia

I'm afraid to close my eyes,
Drift off to sleep and then realize
That everything was just a dream,
Conciousness tearing apart the seam
Holding together my happiness.
I don't believe I've ever smiled like this.
Is this a mirage I'm living in now?
Will I awaken to a frown on my brow?
Or is everything really just as it seems,
And reality's finally better than dreams?