Darkness and Misery

They laugh and stare as I move along here,
there voices filled with joy as they see what I've prepared to do,
it's like the spirit of christmas only in darkness and misery
as I gaze upon my reflection and realize this is the end.

So many people so many lives
they are so divided and so unkind
all of this destruction points to one thing
if only that one thing wasn't me.

My greatest wish would be that if she looked upon me,
I would be worth something to her and in her life I could be
but such things are not meant for me,
as I try to find my way out of this darkness and misery.

The mirror shatters as it can't take the reflection of me,
a monster starring at it's being.
I pick up a piece of glass and I know
salvation awaits at the end of this foe.

I take one last look at those I love
and look at the ruined lives I did bestow.
If only I could find a way to make this undone
perhaps my life would be worth something,
instead of just tears and blood.