Running through my head, flying right over yours

Dust particles dancing through the filtered sunlight
like the thoughts of me in your head
As you writhed about the sheets of your hospital bed
But now you've left,
leaving unspoken words and half healed scars
Wilting roses and get well cards,
Discarded on a shelf
Deflated balloons and chocolates beginning to melt
I wish you were here But I am all by myself
This room was never really for you,
it was always for me
Because I need to be needed
You fueled my sickness
Ravenously hungry, you were always there to feed it

And now your need for me has come to pass
And our mutual addiction has run its course
But that hasnt ended the thoughts of my lips, my skin, my hands on yours
This twisted fantasy that I could save you,
Never hurt you, only heal you
Make you smile again, make you feel, you
Could find happiness in me, and I could find an ending
This shouldn't even bother me!
Your name should not have been on my lips
YOU WERE NEVER EVEN MINE
How could I feel this way,
Youre not the first, and they never ever stay
Its happened already so many times
But maybe you can take with you a piece of the void
You may have found healing for.the moment but you will be back in this room someday
And I will be to starved for attention, starved for affection to stay away