Please, Don't Cry

Dear Perfect Boy,
Im sorry about the mistake,
Those cuts on my wrists,
And every move I take.

I collected a few bottles
Of pills, to die,
If I take them tonight,
Will It Make you cry?

I tied a noose,
With a thick leather strap.
Do you really love me,
Or can you take it all back?

If I set the house on fire,
I can burn to my demise .
I've always been worried,
That this is all lies.

I'm sorry for being faithless,
I trust you, I do,
But I have a problem,
And this is true.

I'm scared that you hate me,
And hide it far down.
I fear that if you met me,
You wouldn't stick around.

So back to this death thing, 
Well I can't handle life,
And this seems easiest.
Now here comes the knife.

I found this knife
And slit through a vein,
I don't even feel it,
Where is the pain?

But I won't stop bleeding.
Im so confused.
My life is so worthless,
I feel overused.

The words are thrown at me,
They slice my skin.
I know this is bad,
I know it's a sin. 

Don't follow my footsteps,
Don't  you dare shed a tear.
Remember this,
I'm the one not wanting to be here.

It wasn't your fault,
I really love you,
I did this to protect the one I love, 
Even though it may not seem true.

You don't deserve this,
The pain in your heart.
You deserve to be happy,
You deserve a fresh start.

Well, beautiful boy,
If I didn't say goodbye,
Well this will make up for that,
Just please, don't cry.