Numbing Pain
I numb my pain.
Dealing with it is to hard to handle.
The thoughts i think to hard to control.
Drinking:
puts me in a slow motion i cant explain.
the way the cold mliquid slides downmy throat and leaves a buring senation inside my stomach.
RELIEF!
Drifting into a state of mind where i feel invinsiable.
Cutting with a Razor:
To see my pain be released!
Satifaction that i hurt myself before someone i care about did it to me!
Before anyone has time to hurt me i cause myself a more permentate pain.
Flirtous:
To be loved by a man.
To be held in strong, protective arms.
To be safe.
I want the sense of belonging.
To take care of him.
Numbing my pain is an action i've become a pro at.
The fact that i have aced it makes me wonder........
What am i hiding?
Why am i hiding?
When will my pain subside?
Why countinue to numb myself when all i want is to be ACCEPTED for who I am?
Not what others want me to be.
I'm a mystery.
A case that has no soultion yet.
A lock....who's key has been lost.
Help me find myself.
Dealing with it is to hard to handle.
The thoughts i think to hard to control.
Drinking:
puts me in a slow motion i cant explain.
the way the cold mliquid slides downmy throat and leaves a buring senation inside my stomach.
RELIEF!
Drifting into a state of mind where i feel invinsiable.
Cutting with a Razor:
To see my pain be released!
Satifaction that i hurt myself before someone i care about did it to me!
Before anyone has time to hurt me i cause myself a more permentate pain.
Flirtous:
To be loved by a man.
To be held in strong, protective arms.
To be safe.
I want the sense of belonging.
To take care of him.
Numbing my pain is an action i've become a pro at.
The fact that i have aced it makes me wonder........
What am i hiding?
Why am i hiding?
When will my pain subside?
Why countinue to numb myself when all i want is to be ACCEPTED for who I am?
Not what others want me to be.
I'm a mystery.
A case that has no soultion yet.
A lock....who's key has been lost.
Help me find myself.