My Heart In A Box

So i'm sitting here again
All alone
Loads of stuff going through my mind
About her, about him, and about.. well, another her
I feel forgotten
Left here to my self
To drown in my own thoughts
Just sitting here waiting for the slow suffocating feeling
Suffocating when my head, heart and soul is filled with shit
Maybe it would be for the best
Maybe it would feel like a saving
Nothing can pssoibly feel worse than Life itself

So I'm sitting here
All alone
Thinking about Him
Yeah Him
The boy that i will never get near
The boy with the beautiful hazel eyes, and the black hair
With voice like an angel, and the hands of a God
The boy who has the greatest power over me
More power than anyone has ever had
The boy who in one time can melt my heart, and make it feel like it's burning
The Boy, The Rockstar, The Kid, The Artist
My Death

How can it be possible to love 2 people the same
Like this
Like I wanna die for them
Like they mean more to me than anything
Like if I can't have them I don't want anything
Like they're the love of my life
Like they're my last way out of Hell
Like the Earth will crumble under my feet if I'm not near them

Rie, and Gerard. If I could I would rip out my heart, put it in a box, and send it to you.
You're the only place it truly belongs.