I Just Fell Too Hard

I sit in my room.
Memories of this past day run through my head..
All the fun and laughs..
Then I realize it was all a huge act..

Today wasn't fun.
It wasn't even remotely pleasant.

Today was the day my world fell apart..
The day all the love in my heart was destroyed.
The day he left me.

It has been a week now,
since that horrible day.
My brain still going over what ever happened on that one day..
Still unable to figure out what I did wrong..
Still crying myself to sleep every night because of the memories he left in my head..

Our would have been 2 month anniversary.
Yet today he decided to spend with his new found love.
I sit in my room thinking of what our plans were..
Thinking of what I did wrong.
Tears streaming down my cheeks
landing on my notebook..

It has been almost 3 weeks since that day..
I have gotten better..
Still I cry when I even hear his name..
My friends are giving up hope..
They think I will never get over him..
I don't think I will either..

Why did I have to fall so hard for him..
All the barriers I set up so this wouldn't happen..
He tore down..
Why did he have to weasel his way into my heart?

Today, 3 weeks from that horrible day,
I sit here crying..
Thinking of what I did wrong.
Will I ever get over him..?
I doubt it..
I just fell to hard</3