Never Knew

I didn’t sign up
To be the forgotten friend.
I didn’t say hello
For you to put me up on a shelf.
I didn’t walk away,
I didn’t let an ill-spoken word about you fall out of my mouth,
I didn’t tell you my secrets
Or stick around for all the inside jokes
To be created and repeated like the newest hit song on the radio
Simply so you could become someone I thought you never would have.
I never thought you’d be the kind,
To say words
You never meant
Or let calls run onto the answering machine
Without ever bothering to listen to them.
I never thought you’d be like that
Or our friendship would end up like that,
On such a sour note.
But I never signed up
To be a doll
You forgot about and shoved to the bottom of the toy box.
And I understand
This bump we’ve stumbled upon in our friendship
Goes both ways,
But it’s hard to speak up
When you’ve pushed me so far back
I don’t even know how to get your attention.

And I don’t know where I stand to you,
Or what to do.
But I know for certain
That I can’t drop it all
And let the friendship fade.
Cause I still remember
Every inside joke
And memory made,
And they still make me smile,
Even if I feel farther and farther from them
Everyday.