Last Summer's Daydream

As the waves broke against the shoreline
I waited for proof
that you loved me.
As the sun set in our two different hometowns
I kissed you goodnight through the phone.

I wasted Tuesday afternoons in a dizzy afterglow
sitting on my kitchen floor
grinning like a fool as you sang me to sleep
I counted pennies hidden in a wish jar
way in the back of my drawer
and knew it'd never be enough to get me
to where I so desperately ached to be

The heat came in waves and I hid in my room
forgot my friends
abandoned them when they needed me most
because you loved me,
and if they didn't understand
then who gives a fuck about them?
I lost summer afternoons spent writing letters
the ones I never sent, I keep finding in my room even now.

July came.
You fell in love with the idea of me,
the way I was in love with the idea of you.

With the dog days of summer we burned out
or you did.
I never knew you to be so cold
as to walk away
my beating heart in your hand.

I swore I'd let you go
swore I was over you
and then it all came crashing down around me.