Seconds From Insanity

I want to be mad
I want to be beautiful
I want to be insane and hear voices in my head
I want to see creatures
And I want them to drag me down the stairs when I'm not looking
I want to see shadows in the corners of my house
When I'm walking around the hallways alone
I want to be fearless
To not be afraid of any of these things
Because I know that they will come from my mind
I want to hear whispers and get chills down my spine
And know that it's all my imagination
I want to scare myself to the verge of death
I want to be lightheaded and nauseous
And fall down and hit my head
I want to have no fears in the world
But I want to horrify myself
I want to never sleep again
I want to always look over my shoulder
And anticipate my mind creating a monster
But nothing will be behind me or under the stairs or in my corners
The real beast will live inside my brain
I won't be able to run away from it or turn on the lights
But I don’t want to get away so easily
I want there to be no escape
I want to be mad
I want to be beautiful