You are your own worst enemy.

With this heart I do my best not to feel
show no emotion that's the only way to heal
but that doesn't work because the pain builds up
and when you least expect it, it pulls you under
taking you back to the memories you try to forget
making you see the faces of the people that left you behind
it shows you all the wrong you've done
all the mistakes you've made
every ounce of happiness you have, it'll take it away
It feels your pain,your hurt,your suffering
it enjoys it, feeds from it
and pushes further and further reaching point break
tears building up,as you rock back and forth begging for mercy
pleading for a way out
a way to escape the suffering
but here isn't a way
It only comes back stronger time and time again
it is you
your mind, your heart
anything you tried to forget was hidden away
but now its tearing you apart.