slowly losing my mind ?

I thought things would get better,
I thought everything was gonna change
I thought it was just this phase
But I'm slowly going insane.
Everything is worse,
I'm always in pain
I feel so alone
But I continue to hide it all.
I don't wanna believe it,
The thoughts in my head
Are getting worse by each day.
I have this huge urge to just grab a razor blade.
Will that help?
I know it won't
I know I'm slowly going insane.
I wanna scream
I wanna cry
I wanna just lay here
Suffer and maybe even die.
Why is this happening to me out of everyone?
Don't I deserve a little change ?
I need some help
Some little chance of hope
Before its too late
Before I actually lose my mind .
I'm pooring my heart out,
The only way I can
By writing this poem
No one will ever understand.
I had to get it off my chest
I had to let it out
I can't just keep it all in
I can't let it out.
I truly am slowly losing my mind.
Why won't someone please help ?