Was I? Should I? Could we? Can I?

Im sick of being used,
betrayed, cheated, mocked.
Especially by someone so dear to me,
that i care about a lot.

When is it going to end?
When is it going to stop?
This constant parade of arrows
crashing straight into my heart.

I cant think of a worse feeling
then the one im feeling now.
I dont know how you could do this to me,
i wish i could understand how.

Was i a litte too much to handle?
or was i just not good enough?
Was i too fragile and weak?
or should i have been more tough?

Should i not have spoke my mind,
should i have kept more to myself?
Should i have always acted happy
instead of always asking for help?

Should i have been less needy?
Should i have always said i was fine?
Should i not have rushed into things
should i have given you more time?

Should i have given you everything you wanted?
Should i have given you more?
Should i have tried to be really pretty
should i have acted like a whore?

Should i have tried to be more like her?
Should i have acted like i was more mature?
Should i have acted like it wasnt a big deal
when by you i was being terribly hurt?

Could we be close again?
Could we be friends and nothing more?
Could we please just forget everything
Could we be like we were before?

Could we try to work at compromise?
Could we only build each other up?
Could we go back to help each other
when times are getting rough?

Can i please have a chance to grow our friendship back?
Can i just go back to the start?
I would love to have you in my life
for youll forever have a place in my heart.