my sweet relief

I saw the blood run down my leg
I felt a relief stuck in my head.
The pain washed away and so did the blood.
The scar still stays, while my pain still plays.
But I have a relief I can go too, you know.
I know its wrong
Not even healthy
But I don't seem to care
No one does.
I screwed up yesterday like I always seem to do
Spent the night crying
Like I usually do.
but I have a friend I can cry too
That sweet blade that cuts through
I never thought it would end up like this...
What did I do?
To deserve the pain I am now going through.
While no one is listening
I know that blade will.
So just sob,
take a deep breath
and do it.