Wrong

Is it wrong of me to want to hide?
To never come out ?
To want to disappear all together?
Is it wrong for me to never let people know how I feel?
To let them see me break?
To let them see me crumble?
Is it wrong of me to never want to shed a tear?
To let others see me cry?
To let others see my weakness?
Is wrong of me to want to run?
To want to run from you?
To want to be way from you?
I let you break me.
I let myself fall for you.
To let myself become what I am today.
You don’t know how much you’ve hurt me.
I don’t think you’ll ever know.
So please tell me what I’m to do.
I felt like I was wanted by someone outside of my security
But everyone is right
As much as I hate to say it they are
So thank you for hurting me
For breaking me
For making me question myself.
I hate it
But yet I can’t come to hate you.
Something won’t let me.
I never knew how much one can hate one’s self
I don’t think you do too
I just want to run.
Run far away from you
From everyone.
But I can’t
All you are now is a memory
A reminder
And yet I don’t know if you were a mistake.
I’m just lost
I can’t find my way anymore.
I don’t want to feel anything anymore
I want to be numb
It’s sad to say but you got me
Got me to lose myself.
So am I wrong for wanting a better life?
To be happy?
To have my happily ever after ?
To have my fairytale come true?
Am I wrong for wanting my prince charming ?
To want to find true love?
To feel wanted by someone that isn’t family?
So tell me please,
Am I wrong to want to know what went wrong?