Girl in the Mirror

I look in the mirror and see a girl
who gazes back toward me
I don't know who she is
She's not who I want to be
She puts on her fake smile
While inside shes falling apart
She claims to be fine
As her "friends" walk away
She hides behind her mask
and pretends to be okay
She is scared to open up
and call someone he "friend" again
They all turn out the same
And never really give a shit in the end
She is scared to let people close
she always ends up heart broke
and crying on the floor
She decided to trust someone again
But it turns out to be another mistake
She feels as a stranger in her own home
like she's out of place and doesn't belong
She tries her best to heal again
But it all seems so wrong
She has ideas for her future
hopes and dreams of her own
But she doesn't hold her breath
because depression is all she's ever known
She asks "Why am I never good enough?"
"Why am I always the second choice?"
People tell her she's got to cheer up
and find her own voice
But they don't know what I feel
As I scrape the blade across my wrist
and blood drips to the floor
Staining the carpet
as a resemblance of my pain
I know who I want to be
It's all so clear
but the fact of life is
I'm just the girl in the mirror