Im Okay With Crazy

I have the urge
An urge to write
But not as strong
As my urge to fight

I have this problem
You cant understand
It hurts me inside
Drives me crazy

When i cant feel
Death is like a dream
That i wait to be real
Do it, seal the deal

I think im insane
Unique and different
All the same

I want out of this black depression
But to tell you the truth
It keeps me warm
Comfy and whole

I want this pain to end
But i like its feeling
I don't know why
But don't really care to.