lost

Lost in lonliness I killed the pain
Took some pills straight to the brain
Then took a shot and smoked a bowl
Trying to get out of this Hell hole
How did I turn out like this
Always feeling so worthless
Now im just fucked in the head
wish i could go brain dead
I scream and shout beg and plead
for them to just leave me
but they never stop and they never will
theyre going in for the kill
wish i could put a gun up to my head
fill my brain all up with lead
Or jump right of the fucking edge
of the mother fucking ledge
Maybe then theyll understand
When they hold the note in their hand
That im not just something to me used
and that i matter too