There are still/Break Down

It's been so long since I've laid in your arms.
It's been so long since we tried.
You could ask anyone, anytime, and they'll tell you I'm over you.
But if you were to look into my eyes and ask for the truth I'd break down and say to you;
There are still some songs I can't listen to.
There are still some songs that break me down.
There are still times I have to pretend.
Times where I have to pretend you don't exist,
Times I have to pretend I don't care the slightest bit,
and I'll keep that facade until the day you say you want the truth from my lips.
Then all the things I said I'd say would become unnecessary, because I'd break down and cry and you'd see your name in my eyes, just like old times.
You'd know you had the upper hand.
You'd know all the things I never said.
You'd see all the times I almost slipped.
All the times I almost had loose lips.
I'm so curious as to what you would say.
If you would just laugh and walk away or if you'd pull me in real close and tell me that you feel the same.
There are so many things I yearn to know, it's been a year, I guess I'll never let you go.
These assumptions only right, since it's been so long and you still haunt my dreams at night.
I know you love another now, and I do too, but I can't help but wonder and think of you.
Did I make the right move?
Did I do the right thing?
Should I have stayed and worn your ring?
Should I have walked down the isle and said "I do" then after you would too?
Did I break destiny's plan?
Did I break the natural stride?
I swallow all my questions down deep, because of my foolish pride.
I guess I may never know what was meant to be.
Unless there's a day where you come to me.