Paranormal Life

Why does this keep happening to me?
Why can't I be who I want to be?
As I sit here writing
I can feel my protectors fighting

Ever since I started messing with this Ouija Board
I've watched my path drift further and further from the Lord
Some supernatural things happened even before
Fate has left me with this life that I abhor

I can never get much sleep at night
Because I feel the demons' eyes watching me as soon as I turn off the light
I don't know why he's here
Causing me to live a life full of fear

Why did this happen to me?
Why am I a Guardian who cannot flee?
Why am I destined for a life full of fear?
When your sitting at home in no danger this severe

Things always want to kill me
I just don't understand what I did to deserve this
I would much rather not see them or feel them and live a normal life
But this is only one of the many reasons I want to end it with this knife