One Step Closer

Dream catching with a fragile hope
only when the time feels right
starting the climb out of the whole i dug
with no promise of ever making it to or at the top

walking down a blurry road
always stumbling a few steps backwards
because all in all my mind tells me in the weakest of moments
that safety means fear

seeing so much without the reasons behind
i get a glimpse of it every once in a while
with the consequence of compromising my beliefs
I treasure every single one

from start to finish i've come to realize
that the ways may change
but the mind behind must stay intact
for me to avoid the road back

knowledge in bubbles flying above my life
look up you may find your questions among mine
last year, tomorrow, right this second, i know the surface stays the same
or so my influence tells me everyday

with a bit of luck you'll be breaking free soon
from the illusion covering your eyes
getting back on track because the truth is still unknown
i am only as aware as i am alright

and when watching misery becomes too much
i've learned to smile at it for just a moment
to show happiness to the ones broken, left behind and defeated
because i still remember how that saved me just yesterday

running upwards along side tower heights
to break through the cover of clouds
that always seems to be pouring fear
in need of a crystal clear clean cut version of me, of everything

and when it starts to get to much, to close
i forget to remember the lives left behind
all the hurt regret anger, the reality shoved in my face
i still find myself trying to survive on overused lies

fighting the conclusion that happiness is overrated
and that misery looks better
i always end up at the same dead end, same question
is life worth living when you're a designed disaster?