"Ease"

I'm turning around to take your hand
But never have the time to grasp it,
Checking the shadows for just a glimpse,
But never being able to catch it.
Waiting and turning myself in circles
For a word of praise to give me hope,
Or a single strand maybe left behind
So I could try to re-twine this rope.
All those simple times we had together
Are the memories that I reach for now,
Trying to feel the smallest sliver
Of the emotions I've forgotten somehow.
I'm racing towards you but standing still,
Searching for all those missing pieces
In hopes that I can find the smallest fraction
Of any time where my heartache eases.