Pretending.

Just pretend,
That I don't care.
My heart is broken,
I'm in despair.

Once it starts,
It never stops.
The hurting is,
just what I want.

The pain is something,
that I need.
My selfishness,
is also greed.

The lies I tell,
the secrets kept.
are building up,
to such a depth.

I need to tell,
but yet I can't.
Maybe I'll give,
therapy a chance.

but still I wont,
I'll hide away.
Away from night,
Away from day.

But loneliness,
is not enough.
I'll act okay,
but life is rough.

I need to act,
but I'm not that good.
It's time to start living,
as I should.