Is It Even worth It?

It's as if everything I do is for nothing
I try so hard to recover but the darkness never stays away
it's mocking my every step as if it's just letting me savor the moment
I often ponder when it will strike again.

The darkness controls my mind it seems
mocking me even as I sleep
as the darkness visits me in my dreams
showing me things that it says are soon to be.

I wonder what the point of it all is
should I just give in and let it win?
do I take the fall and accept defeat
allow death to add a new victim to it's collection.

It's like my mind can't stop debating
is life or death really all that simple?
just find a way to end it all
or stick with it and hope you live a life that’s worth it.

The cold sharp metal it sparks a new fire
one that makes your smile a million miles
it's warm red rivers it creates
leaves you wanting deaths cold embrace.