Eternal Sleep

Dear Heart,

Please stop.

I'm about to break.

Dear Brain,

Please hush,

I don't know what more I can take.

I just want sleep, serenity.

What if I slept for eternity?

Would you miss me if I didn't wake?

Would it make your world quake?

Would you understand?

Would you pull away from my cold unmoving hand?

I don't know what I'm saying,

I know I've got to stay.

But some days the thought's just so soothing.

To know I can slip away.

I could have true peace,

Away from all the pain.

I could chose my fate,

The fast or slow lane.

I could make it hurt,

Or be as gentle as the breeze.

I just really want to have one last day at sea,

Or riding horseback through the country side,

Hooves beating on the ground.

Wouldn't that be lovely dear?

A wonderful ending site.

Some days I just want to quit,

Just have it all be done,

& Every day I ask myself,

Why do I put myself through this?

It's in my hands to hush my brain,

It's in my hands to stop my heart & just go cold./

But now I ask myself,

Why have I chosen to grow old?

& Now I truly fear I may not,

& I do not know.