Don't Look

Don’t look.
Turn your eyes from my scars
The ones that cover my arms.
From all the times where I couldn’t control myself.

Eaten away by the fear and anger.
Loneliness is my only companion no matter how many people are near.
Always in the shadows of the girl I pretend to be.
Fake smiles cover the pain and unshed tears.

Another mark on my arm for the time someone else is disappointed in me.
Did they know I tried my hardest?
I am like a fish in the sea, doing only as well as a fish can do.
Yet why do they look at me and expect to see a tree?
I am no tree with leaves so green,
Just a fish in the big, blue sea.

Eaten away by the sadness and expectations.
Loneliness is my only companion no matter how many people are near.
Always in the shadows of the girl I pretend to be.
Fake smiles cover the pain and unshed tears.

I don’t want to add your name too.
I don’t want to create a new mark on my arm.
For the time when I finally come and disappoint you too.

Don’t look.
I don’t want you to see
All the times I couldn’t hid the emotions on the inside.

But you looked, and now you see
What is the true me.
I don’t met your eyes, I can’t bare to see the judgment in them.
For all the times I couldn’t be strong.

Yet you hold me in your arms and whisper
‘It’s okay, nobody’s perfect,'
And with that I began to cry.