Abyss

I can feel myself slipping again
and this time there is no one to catch me.
Or to even break my fall.
Everytime I start to fly high,
I'm shot to the ground
and I'm running out of soft places to land.
I try to keep looking to the future,
but the further I look,
the darker it gets. I'm left standing at the edge of a canyon
and I get the feeling that falling for an eternity in the dark abyss
is my only choice left.
I hate feeling so helpless.
so Unwanted and
so alone.
I'm fragile.
Maybe more so than most,
Maybe I've just been broken more times.
All I know is that I'm losing control
and losing any remaining hope that I will ever
be happy.
be okay.
I no longer know who I am
or what I'm worth.
And I"m scared.