Not One and the Same

where did you learn to cause that much pain?
you were given a better life but you threw it back
in their faces, rotten, filthy, reeking of your hate
and I must live with your mistakes
everyone expecting me to follow through
to move just like you
sleep around like a common whore
modesty and decency flying out the glass door
shards of glass flying back at me
cutting me with whispers and stairs
nothing I can do to get away from here
cause im sure as hell not going to move out
not going to move out the way you did
an insincere goodbye like you gave
acting as if you were treated like a fucking slave
playing the victim
-pity me, pity me-
pity you? What was ever done to you?
you’re so ungrateful and it makes me
absolutely sick, to my stomach, to my core
so much so, that i smash away at the glass door
-shut up! shut up!-
im not you!
and i’m working hard to be someone of worth
going to school, working a job
not going to be some lazy slob
not that you were, but you
did everything wrong
broke my mama’s heart
i can see it in her eyes
something in my daddy, you killed inside
but they work to hide it and so do i
cause I’ll never give you that satisfaction
of seeing me cry