Undo Love

At times I see him, others I don’t
There is a feeling of loneliness that has settled in
Since he had left me,
A hollow that engulfed my heart
A pain that I couldn’t explain
Ripped open and displayed
My mind became frayed and useless
Darkness engulfs me
I surrender what is left of my soul
How could this happen
Why did this happen
Damaged beyond repair
Reminders of his face plague me
Everywhere I go
I cannot escape
Slowly suffering
Slowly deteriorating
This was not what needed to happen
This weakness that I feel
Escape an escape
I cried
I cried
It was all in vain
A waste of breathe
I didn’t have in me
A love turned to pain
Pain that generated hate
Sorrow
So much sorrow
Any thought of hope erased
Deprecated in darkness
The deceit that was his smile
In false hope that was his voice
I see no light
No forgiveness
Loveless and hated
This slow agonizing
Fateful in the unfaithful
I grind out
This is what you made me
These pieces forever broken
Yet she pulled me through
I cannot be fixed
Damaged
Damaged beyond repair
Keep me close
Tear me
Rip
Shred
Abuse me
Don’t love me
I won’t make it through