My Get Away

Walking down the street I see everything,
but yet nothing at all.
I am in my world.
Once again trying to escape reality.
To a world where everything is right.
Where I can be anything,
Do anything.
It seems to work for a while,
I forget you exist,
Forget you broke me,
Forget that I’m falling apart at the seams.
All of a sudden I’m swallowed from my fairytale back into my grey reality.
No my life is not boring,
but my imagination can do so much more.
I am back
and with reality comes the thought of
You.
You have always been my everything,
but I am now your nothing.
From one minute to the other….
Poof you’re gone.
And I’m here without you.
So if I seem spacey let me be,
It's just ,my get away from you
Even though I don't want to.
I have to do it for both our sakes.
Please don’t fuck with my mind anymore.
I’m working on getting my heart to be at ease.
Maybe if I smile and pretend to be happy
Eventually
I will be….