Time After Next

And I say to myself, maybe you should go to bed before you start to get that feeling again. You know- that feeling where it's 3am and you start to feel lonely. You get that overwhelming feeling that you're choking on all of the thoughts that are going through your brain- the same thoughts that only you will know in the end. It's only you awake at this hour, saying nothing, just experiencing the silence. Maybe you will express yourself by crying this time, but next time it won't be that simple- that physically painless. It's all mental this time, but you don't know what will happen next time. And maybe, just maybe, if you're lucky, there won't be a time after next.