Selfish

I'm trying so hard, but then I realize I'm not trying at all
I'm selfish when I'm successful, pitiful when I fall
I listen to Mayday Parade, because I'm cool like that
then I realize it's because their lyrics fit me better than a hat
I want someone to hold me and to love me
to accept me for who I am and everything I can be
I wanna change myself though, to be a little less selfish
but it gets harder everyday to fulfill this pointless wish
I want to be that person that someone will never forget
not as someone they hate, but someone they wish they could get
that probably is selfish, but is it wrong to wanna be a princess
to live in a castle, have happily ever after, and cry less
I wanna be able to dream my dreams without fear of rejection
to live this life without losing to natural selection
why is it frowned upon to want to be appreciated a little more
when all they do is use, abuse, and stab me to the core
I'm waiting to find my purpose and my meaning
and one day the sun will rise and my new life will be beginning