Is It Bad?

Is it bad that i want to die,
That every time im alone i cry?
That i fall asleep weeping every night,
And that i am ready to give up this fight?
That everyday i mark my arm,
Falling deeper into self harm?
That i so badly want to end it,
All it would take is one more hit?
Then i would get what i so badly need,
And my soul would finally be freed.