I don't even know

With each day that passes
I feel as if I'm becoming years older
and that nothing is ever going to change
That I'll be stuck here waiting
for a man with no intention of finding me
I cry alone and rock to the sounds
of shattered pieces falling, falling, falling to the ground
and I sob for the dying love that never had a chance to live
It's so sad, yet beautiful, watching the ebb and flow of things
watching my life waste away while you
happily share smiles and tears with her
does she hold you with love
did you choose her cuz I refused to fuck
Why does my heart break while yours
stays in one piece and beats
is she that special to you
that a second chance is just ridiculous to give me
i'm starting to think so
this is becoming just pointless
this constant chatter in my head
this ceaseless aching in my breast
I'm lost without you
and maybe I don't wanna be found...