Believe In Me Too

There was a time
When I thought that I could do anything
Anything I set my heart on
I could be somebody special
I could change the world
But now
I've grown cynical
I've knocked myself down
Too many times
I've lost my hope
And my ambitions
All my motivation
Gone
I just feel empty now
My future seems bleak
So many times
I have thought about
Not sticking around to find out
What the future will bring
So many times
I've thought about just
Ending it now
Skipping the disappointment later
But now
I have a chance to better myself
I have the opportunity
To make my life something worth living
I want to take it
I want to
So badly
But I'm the only one who believes
That it could change my life
For the better
I know it would
I know I'll be okay
If I just take this chance
And I'll always wonder if I don't
For the first time in years
I have hope for my future
I can picture myself at eighteen
I can picture myself out in the world
Doing things I've dreamed of
For the first time in years
My thoughts about the future are
"I wonder what I'll be doing in five years?"
Rather than
"I wonder when I'll get the balls
To kill myself"
I've never been given a chance in life
Until now
This is my big chance
I can change everything
I can be happy
I don't remember what it's like
To be truly happy
I need someone else to believe
That this will be good for me
That I can make it work
I need that
Stop making me doubt myself
I can't take it
For once, I believe in me
But the people I really need to
Don't
I guess the best way to go
Is to prove them wrong
So I'll take this chance
I'll change my life
I'll better myself
I'll give myself a future.