Despair

Just when I thought I had everything figured out
I find I have evaluated it all wrong
I found happiness once
But it created itself out of a hopeful thought
Once that dream was over
I realized
I never changed
I’m still that little kid
Hopefully wishing, dreaming, playing
Make-believing that this world is actually better than it is
But I broke out of that dream
I woke up to the hard reality
I am me
I never changed
I’m still that little princess
I thought I was free
But I realized I’m still trapped in my tower
Waiting hopefully
Watching endlessly out yonder window
Hoping the world isn’t all monsters, dragons, and evil men
But that’s all I’ve known
All I’ve experienced
There is no good in the world
And if there is…
I have yet to see it.