October Memories
it's once again.
that time of year.
haunting.
experiencing.
that forever fear.
i can feel you breathing.
next to me.
i can feel the wind.
as it seems to speak.
the more i think.
it all comes back.
the more i obsess.
the more feelings i lack.
if i had the chance.
i'd take it all back.
i know i've moved on.
from the past.
though i cannot move on.
from what we had.
the things i said.
the things i did.
i always won.
in the end.
i never wanted to win.
in the sense of torture.
i wanted to forget.
but i could never forgive.
you don't treat someone you love.
like a sin.
but this is now.
and not way back when.
if i could only.
make you understand.
the years i spent.
with a heart.
made of stone.
there's no way now.
i'd ever let you go.
you'll forever be.
apart of my soul.
you'll forever be.
an october memory.
that time of year.
haunting.
experiencing.
that forever fear.
i can feel you breathing.
next to me.
i can feel the wind.
as it seems to speak.
the more i think.
it all comes back.
the more i obsess.
the more feelings i lack.
if i had the chance.
i'd take it all back.
i know i've moved on.
from the past.
though i cannot move on.
from what we had.
the things i said.
the things i did.
i always won.
in the end.
i never wanted to win.
in the sense of torture.
i wanted to forget.
but i could never forgive.
you don't treat someone you love.
like a sin.
but this is now.
and not way back when.
if i could only.
make you understand.
the years i spent.
with a heart.
made of stone.
there's no way now.
i'd ever let you go.
you'll forever be.
apart of my soul.
you'll forever be.
an october memory.