Abused!

I didn't know that the first time I pushed you away, and you kept going that it wasn't okay.
I didn't know that me saying no, and you kept going that it shouldn't be that way.

Moving your hands, your mouth, the rest of your body in a way that I didn't want to understand or do.
Saying things like, 'trust me' and 'you'll like it once you do.'

I'm in pain, both mentally and physically.
I called one of my friends crying, he didn't know what to do or say.

After he heard my story he stopped responding, and I understand what that meant.
He didn't have time for a 'slut' like me, who couldn't stop you.

I have no one else to confide.
I don't know what to do.
I'm lost.
I'm broken.
I need you.