Felt too Often

I try to be hopeful,
But I am truly hopeless,
Left to drown in my “sorrows”,
But never forgotten by the loneliness.

Digging deeper and deeper,
Clawing at my eyes,
Can I not see what might happen,
Am I really blind?

No,
Of course I am not,
Absurd cries,
Fill my lonely thoughts.

It's happening again,
I know this feeling all to well,
Forgotten, abandoned,
Never safe and sound.

Is it really my fault,
Do I push everyone away,
Why do I do this,
Day after day.

I gave you my soul,
And you walked away,
Without a single word,
I don't know if I'll be okay.