Self harm, my monster

Living this life that I hate so much
Living in this world it hurts so much
The scars that line my body up and down
The looks and comments wondering why
Why did I do this to myself 
I often wonder the same thing. 

I wonder but never stop
Worry and shake 
But I don't care
Bleeding all over...hopeing mabey it would end here
But I can't stop it...it's no longer me 
I have a monster inside of me
It's comes out whenever it wants
Cutting burning killing me
Will it win?
I kindof hope so..

You see..cutting is bad, any self harm is. 
It's not just a fad or something
It's a problem...its addiction
The need...the wanting
Its almost uncontrolable
Stopping..I don't think it will ever happen
The monster will win
I can feel it bubbling up again 

To all those who think about it 
Don't ever start 
Seek help 
Don't be like me
Don't have a monster
Live your life 
Iv let it win, 
Don't let it get you.